i AM EMOTIONALLY TORMENTED...

I HAV ALWAYS WANTED US TO BE WE...US..BUT YOU NEVER

SHOWED IT MATTERS TO YOU! WHEN TIMES ARE BAD, I STILL INSIST WE

DO THINGS TOGETHER...WHEN YOU SAY, YOU CAN'T DO IT..I HAVE ALWAYS SAID

IT'S FROM US...MONEY ISN'T AN ISSUE! ITS THE FUCKING THOUGHT!

YOU KEEP SECRETS, KEEP TELLING ME LIES...

I KEEP GETTING EMOTIONALLY ABUSED, MENTALLY PRESSURED....

SCREAM AT ME, MAKE A SCENE, THREATHEN ME TO COMMIT SUCIDE....

I AM SO DONE AND OVER WITH YOUR DRAMA...WHEN WILL YOU

EVER LEARN I AM PART OF YOU!!!!

* i am feeling very emo...have crried for hours...dun ask me what happened..jus hope the best happens*



The picture depicts how i feel........



New Year is coming...

I hav cleared my wardrobe,cupboards and whatever that i feel is trash to be in there...

Life has been good...work was ok-ok...relationships were gettin better..

Before i welcome the New Year...I wanna clear some Trash!

Unwanted friendships...

I am not every girl's best friend...cause of my outspoken personality...my strong character and yes, THE person myself.

I maintain a low profile among strangers but once, I have hit it off with someone, I MAKE SURE they feel very special...

I made friends...no no.. I FOUND SISTERS at my work place, girls who have been there when I WAS cranky, stubborn, foolish, happy, sad, excited..They stood by me and will always stand by me.. I THANK GOD FOR PLANTING SUCH FLOWERS...

zee,marga,syah,ereen,shann,inah,herli,marianne,marita,russell,azeanna,kristy,fairuz,aida,vidya
....If not for these flowers, the garden would be so dull!!

Yes, to the point...Unwanted Friendships...

I have had people who came into my life as accquaintances and then friends ... NOW, i would prefer them to be STRANGERS...!

I try to be happy with everyone but if you prove you are not worth my time and friendship..I dun need U! I hate to argue against people's assumpation...cause That's what you think.. You never clarified it... AND YOU ASSUME YOUR ASSUMPATIONS are Right. gO AHEAD!

I may be the bitch of the year..but I never fake myself for anyone... I rather be SINCERE than Fake!

Well, I am not talking about ONE PERSON...its in general to those who have abused my trust and friendship...before the bad-mouths go talking..I am happy with who had ,have and will be with me...

so to the rotten trash, thanks for the valuable memories...and good bye to your selfish friendship...









Work is over for the year!! I M SO SO SO GLAD!hahahaha...I do miss my girls at work and my children.I cannot wait to see them next year...

Anyway, there will be lots of update...

PHOTOS...

VIDEOSS...

SONGS....

There are pending outings...(soonok, gurlies)

And there's a movie i am dying to watch for...VARANAM AAYIRAM...

i watched this scene on YOUTUBE...and decided I MUST WATCH WITH HIM....

surya...melts me! hahahahaha

anyway, i am going on a road trip to malacca with family!...excited

watch out for mega updates!