The first thing i would like to say, I DID GET MY PAY! And on that friday, I bought doughnuts for everyone!lol.I went to bhajans at some place near telok blangah.they had a stage and we sang there. We waited for the chariot to come. We sang some more songs.My throat was going dry!we headed down to telok blangah crescent to see the bajans there. It was RAGHAVENDRA society.we sat down and started singing bhajans.After that, headed to temple,to meet vadi's family and my auntie. She had bought aadi with her. So she went to buy the ticket for paal kudam,while aadi rested on my lap. It was past midnight and he was so active.hahahaha. After the mother completed her prayers wid gejax, i left with aadi, he slept in the cab. I reached home at 5 plus. I had two hours to sleep before i left for work. I woke up so late. Thank god!, pay was in! took a cab and went to work.i was supposed to go to class but I skipped. I went home to help out at home. Tired. I helped out abit. got ready. BHAJANS WERE HAPPENING. i went to sleep at 12. I went to work on sunday morning. CAB AGAIN. went school(dry...), vadi picked me up, went shopping. bought something 4 NANZ!lol. ate dinner. Went to the GAP boutique. I loved the top. wanted to get similar tee for vadi. No colour or no size. Disappointed. went to his place. changed.waited for him and left his house. We went to the vadapathira kaliamman temple for bhajans.IT WAS FUN!


It has been so long since i had fun like this.lol. missed JES!.than we headed down to south beach road for bhajans.POWER TO THE GIDUGA!..i was growing tired.sleep engulfing my eyes.It rained.Delayed the festival. There was so much of drama, people whacked by whips, rolling around the fire pit, people going into trances...and everyone chanting OM SHAKTHI! The rain stopped! festival continued. I was growing tired.i had to rest. slept on vadi's lap.wen i woke up, sun was shining. My gang of uncles and family only came at about 10 am.it was so nice to see everyone walk down the fire.I was on leave.I thought of going back for a meeting. I couldn't. I smsed ereen that I cannot come!We reached around 11,bathed, ate,slept at 12 and woke up at 9!..vadi came over, had dinner with him,came back home and slept!

ANYWAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY TWO DARLING SISTASSS!
NANDY-HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!HOPE UR WISHES COME TRUE!
POOJA!-may U overcome Ur fears!happy birthday dearie!

today i straightened my hair, temp,iron,i look like nonsense!...eeeeeee! will never rebond my hair! I went tekha EXPO. bought 2 punjabi suits. 1 for me, and another for jes. looks nice!!!!wanna get more!anyway with my pay,i 've got myself two leggings, royal blue toga-top dress,guess top(red)ilove!,green MANGO top!i wanna get more stuff!hopefully a GUESS BAG!






I went to work, and was greeted with a good news. M Y BOSS WAS DISAPPOINTED WITH ME BECAUSE MY CLASSROOM LOOKED BAD. and her way of handling was holding back my pay. I WAS LIKE..WTH!?!. how could she do that? so un professional i would say. anyway, my Chinese teacher and another staff helped me to do up the class. AND IT LOOKS SO NICE NOW!i hate it when the weekend teachers just abuse my classroom. PLEASE be responsible for your actions. I did not have lunch,or break! It is my pay for deepavali and she does this.HOW SELFISHLY INCONSIDERATE!anyway, i have to speak with her tomorrow.will have to let her know how i feel.

As I was doing my work, this parent came to speak to my colleague. It is not that i despise her. The parent is very selfish and thinks only for her child.I WOULD SAY.Another parent spoke to my colleague about the annoying parent. Complaing and bitching. THEY ARE FRIENDS. kakakaka. some WOMEN!. I want my pay!!!

I have school tomorrow.seeing my classmates after so long.excited.tensedd.

I am experiencing a roller coaster of emotions. I am looking at the bright side!


It is going to be 2 am and I am writing this post. I cannot sleep, why?I do not know the answer.anyway, my wrist hurts pretty bad.the right wrist.It's hurting and causing me discomfort. Anyway, work was FUN today!The children make my day! I did not eat a lot today! I HAVE PUT ON WEIGHT.not 1 or 2. but 5 KILOGRAMS!gosh! i hate standing on the weighing scale. I need to diet.lol. I AM a very self-conscious person. I wanna lose my fat arms and tummy! Pretty satisfied with the rest of my other body parts. I need to start exercising!!!sooooon! JES, WANNA GO TRUE YOGA?* now do not stare at me pls!*

I went hari raya visiting to my dad's friends' place and it was so nice! I decided to bake cookies for deepavali.its been ages since i baked with mummy!I am using face book now, I am glad to have found all my relatives who live lands away from ME!i love technology! my wrist still hurtS. cannot wait for pay day...3 more days!dying for retail therapy!...

still not sleepy






i am too bored. SO I AM GOING TO COME UP WITH A WISH-LIST!for the new year AND WHAT I WANNA GET MYSELF! wanna get me something...hahahahaa!GOWZ, if ur brother has no idea what to get me for our anniversary, just show him this list!hahahaha

I WOULD LOVE...
AN IPOD NANO.
A COACH BAG.
A YUMMY DELICIOUS MEAL AT A RESTUARANT.
A NEW PAIR OF LEVIS.
A FEW PAIRS OF JEANS.
MORE T-SHIRTS-THE LITTLE-MISS EDITION SHIRTS.
A PACKET OF SLIMMING PILLS.
A VEST FROM TOPSHOP.(BECOS BUGIS MARKET DOES NOT HAVE VESTS FOR THOSE WHO ARE ASSET-RICH).
TO WATCH BLACK EYED PEAS IN CONCERT.
A FENDI SUNGLASSES.
AN ALL-EXPENSE PAID SHOPPING EXPERIENCE.N
A MASSSGE IN A SPA.
TO OWN A GUESS SHOULDER BAG.
A BEBE TOP.(A PINK ONE)
A PINK CORSET.
A NEW HANDPHONE( PDA PHONE).
A NIGHT AT AN EXPENSIVE HOTEL WITH MY LADIES.

if i had the money,i would do all this. MONEY is not the only thing, that makes the world go around! IT DOES NOT NEED TO BE BRANDED OR THE GIFT FOR NEW YEAR MAY NOT BE LISTED HERE! nevertheless, I WOULD LOVE ANY GIFTS THAT I RECEIVE and even if i don't...I ALWAYS KNOW..LOVE IS THE BEST GIFT!



The previous post was sparked by some actions. I am not saying I regret doing it.and i do not wish to speak about it unless, someones probes me. ANYWAY NITZ, thanks for the sms in the morning and I did feel better after the night's sleep. THANKS for those who did feel for me. it is not easy to feel for other people, it is an intelliggence that some cannot achieve!...I AM LOVING COMING BACK HOME AFTER WORK, seeing Aadi running towards me and hugging me!I cannot wait to have my own children!





TOMMOROW'S chokriz prayer at gaya3's house but I CANNOT GO! I got my darn period on SUNDAY NIGHT.irritating.





I cannot wait for sunday!WHY?! I am going to go and do kumbudathananm at south bridge road! what and why is it done! lol. kumbudathanam is when people kneel and lie on the floor, take a few steps and do it again.It is hard to explain it in words.My period would have stopped by then!It's a spirtual experience for me. I have been doing it since I was a very little girl. It has a significant meaning in my life! I would probably do it till my legs tell me "hello!, we cannot carry you". My dad takes part in the fire-walking festival.and so does my brother. I cannot wait to shower in the cold water and hold the holy leaves and the lemon and pray for my loved one's safety. I would be so upset if i miss any of the fire walking festival. Last year, was my brother's first time. I COULDN'T GO!kept calling vadi.checking.checking.and vadi told me, he walked beautifully!.i teared. when i saw the video, i cried. NOW , i know why some of them who were there CRIED!My brother takes on my dad, and i would probably raise my children TO BE SOMEONE like my dad. I'm being very emotional nowdays.





anyway, i would be going this year's fire-walking to witness my dad and muthu and my uncles...walking down the fire to celebrate the victory of the goddess's promise!





LATEST!


the four ,DJVD have been heading out to restuarants lately with a someone very adorable, aadi! THO lovable, he can be quite a rascal! he sticks to jes and dev.and tests everyone's patience.*jes! vadi will be GREAT DAD!ryte* we were going back in the train, he sang songs with me. The auntie beside me said, "handsome ah boy!" and aadi gave his cheeky smile. he said thanks. The auntie asked me something, which made my tummy giggle, she asked if "he's the father" pointing to VADI!(obviously, i'm mistaken for the mum!)to think that, aadi was mistaken for our child,good looking children in our life?kakakakaka..NAH! all i want is healthy children who would love US!children!?i am loving it!


taken during our first year of courtship,i miss my curls!
DARN!i love dis picture!










I am tired.WHY?!how can you be normal and expect me to just forget everything after a arguement?!It's like YOU-EITHER-COOL-DOWN or YOU-ANSWER-MY-QUERIES. what do you take me for? I do not cry, YES!but that does not mean my heart is made of rock! sighzz! I HATE TO BE UPSET WITH YOU! you know that for yourself. BUT HOW LONG MUST I TOLERATE YOUR SENSITIVENESS WHEN YOU JUST THINK ABOUT YOURSELF. there have been so many issues, in the end, i have to compromise, i have to learn to forgive and forget,i have to ACCEPT IT BECAUSE ITS LIKE THAT!...I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE!YOU have got to understand that this girl has given almost all her strength up for you, YOU push her out of the limits,she's turning back, and not coming back!You can scream my name,let everyone in the public know that we are having problems.I HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THIS DRAMA!i do not know why i am doing this, NO!, my relationship is not going down the drain!I'm not saying this because my family knows you and my friends like you.I TRULY LOVE YOU!even if my dad said no or my friends detested you, YOU WOULD BE THE ONE I WOULD CHOOSE!..and if that means,i cannot marry you, its ok, i would love you 4ever!

tears are rolling down my cheeks as i do this entry!..love has turned me into a matured,strong and a better person. but at times, my love makes me feel pain, burning down in my heart. I CANNOT SPEAK THIS WITH YOU! because you get all worked up and start crying. I HATE TO HEAR YOU CRY!...and do not waste your tears for me!I cannot go a day without talking to you...but.....i cannot live a insecure,tantrum-throwing man! if my departure would make you a stronger, i rather depart!...

LAYDESS WHO READ MY BLOGSPOT!: YOU KNOW WHO I AM SPEAKING ABOUT, I AM TRYING TO VENT OUT MY EMOTIONS HERE, BECAUSE I FEEL A LOT BETTER WHEN I HAVE IN WORDS. PLEASE, DO NOT MISJUDGE HIM!BECAUSE NO1 CAN EVA BE BETTER THAN HIM!a issue in my mind,sealed in my lips and now engraved in my heart!~










I LOVE GUESSS!!!!!

BEBE!

MY PARENTS,BRUDER,SOULSISTA,JES,RAVI ANNA,SARAVANA,MY UNLCES,VADIVEILAN,MY GIRLIES(U KNOW WHU U R)..AND MY LOVES!THANKS FOR STANDING BY ME..NO MATTER WAT!